#i genuinely didnt think i was going to be able to pull it off but it's genuinely a bit upsetting so uh... congrats to me
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'A Loving House' concept teaser
(content warning: abusive parent, from 1:44 to 2:08)
#okay so this#this gets heavy at some point#cw abuse#cw abusive parents#i genuinely didnt think i was going to be able to pull it off but it's genuinely a bit upsetting so uh... congrats to me?#i was worried i wasn't going to be able to execute it well but no! i'm proud of this! it's very very close to experiences i've had#cw loud#<- so in that last part it gets a bit loud. but also when i show a sample song the volume is a bit higher sorry about that#maybe i'm the only one who will appreciate it and thats okay but i love what i do with the voices in this#like each character has a number of specific sound effects that describe their personalities#they are NOT voices but they work like voices and aaaagh i dont know thats like the only thing i'm super proud of. i think its a cool idea#even if it's not executed perfectly#a loving house
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evening dedicated to The Horrors
#i just need to fucking vent man#i cannot fucking live like this anymore#i still dont have the tags for my car and its almost been a year#a whole year where i didnt go ANYWHERE but work and home and sometimes special occasions when i felt i could risk it#and the daily agonizing fear of being pulled over again and getting a ticket that i cant afford because i cant afford to pay for my tags#ive gotten one of those smart watches that can track your heart rate and stress and im genuinely developing a heart problem from stress#when i was driving home tonight i think i mightve had an arrhythmia which was a scary feeling#im going off of caffiene from here on out because im starting to be afraid that i might have a heart attack#im twenty fucking five years old and im so stressed and scared about money that im afraid of a heart attack#i miss being able to go and do things and just get out of my generally shitty house#i feel like i would be a totally different person if this was just finally taken care of#someone who doesnt feel like they need to hospitalize themselves because the neverending stress is making you suicidal#because it feels like it’ll never end and i’ll be scared and hurting forever#because how the fuck am i gonna get almost $2000 when im going through a garnishment#like i can barely afford to pay all my billa#fuck i CANT even pay my bills my mom is covering my phone bill this month#because i’d have to choose between car insurance or a phone#and god for fucking bid i ever lose my insurance#the level of fear i would have just trying to get to and from work would kill me#and the longer this goes on the more i wonder if that might actually happen#im smoking way more because im stressed. i cant sleep because im stressed. i cant eat because im stressed.#all things that preclude some pretty serious cardiovascular problems#i have a doctors appointment on tuesday to discuss my heart#im nervous for it but who knows#i have had an exceptionally high heart rate but maybe the arrythimia was just psychosomatic#my money troubles have completely stopped my life and i cant see a way out#i feel like im drowning and like im going clinically insane#i was outside sitting in our carport and a cop drove by and i was so terrified i spent 10 minutes hiding in an empty room#looking through the blinds to see if they were gonna come do something#i am so afraid that i have considered quitting my job because the commute is so stressful and upsetting
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MY ROOMIEㅤׂㅤ𐙚 ࣪ ⭒ suguru geto x fem!reader
roomie geto who would always wake up before you, wearing his baggy grey sweats with a tight t shirt gripping his well built body. sometimes on facetime with satoru talking about literally anything as he eats his breakfast.
"Your roomie awake yet? still sleepin' her head off?" the speaker blared. suguru shifts his phone so the camera would catch your face in view, you stare at the phone groggily, your hand itching your stomach which revealed abit of your middriff. but you didnt seem to care, gojo lets out a cheerful greeting at this early time asking you typical question like 'how are you?' and throwing in occasional flirting that you didn't really register due to lingering sleepiness.
you stand up from your seated position next to suguru at the dining table, as suguru munches on the fruits his eyes drag over your body as you stretch. a tattoo peaking from just under your shorts, causing suguru to graze his finger over it. lightly tugging your shorts down to see the tattoo. "getting worked up this early in the morning suguru?" satoru teases with his charming smirk. his camera catching his face as he seams to be lying down shirtless in bed.
"no, s'just curious." he says withdrawing his fingers, he watches as you look around cluelessly, causing a slight chuckle to slip from his baritone voice. his hand snaking around your waist pulling you closer to his body. positioning the camera back to him witch also catches you leaning into sugurus soft touch.
"pretty y/n looks tired." satoru says his keen eyes staring at you through the camera. watching as you rub your eyes underneath your glasses aggressively. before reaching over the phone to grab something. the camera doesn't fail to pick up your breast spilling from your low cut tank top and in your drowsy state you don't even realize what your doing.
suguru notices this and can smell from a mile away a cheeky remark satorus gonna day, "don't even say it." suguru says a smile, breaking out onto his tired yet handsome face, watching as satorus face breaks into airy laughter. "I wasn't gonna say anything!" satoru says, rolling his eyes. Both him and suguru know he was gonna say something to ruin the intimate yet tranquil mood that was going on. so it was better left unsaid.
roomie geto who always refill things without your knowledge, you could run out of your favorite moisturizer and suddenly it feels shallow and empty to heavy and full. and you'd always ask if he bought it but he's so good at gaslighting and manipulating you into thinking it was always full.
your current moisturize had been full for the past 2 months, and you're starting to think you're going insane.
every time you try to recall going out to buy one or even a bunch, it never comes to mind. and here you are making your way to the bathroom, taking your glasses off being met with blurry vision but still able to see, you go in to grab your moisturizer that had been pretty much empty since yesterday. fully expecting the container to feel light but taken aback when it feels heavy yet again.
you screw open the cap to be met with a brand new looking moisturizer and your quick to confront your roomie about it.
"suguru, did you buy me a new moisturizer?" " nuh uh, didn't you buy yourself one like a couple days or weeks ago?" he questioned and you actually start to think about it, but every day is just as blurry as your vision so you genuinely have no idea. you watch as suguru continues scrolling on his phone not at all phased at your question.
and you start to question if you have dementia. because you have so little memory of what you did this week, you cant press him any further so you reside to the bathroom as you continue to ponder on how your moisturizer suddenly just regenerates its product again along with your favorite snacks suddenly being refilled, too.
roomie suguru who's whipped for your touch and melts innit.
being in close contact with you is something suguru loves, taking pictures with the friend group he automatically moves over to you so he can slip his hand around your waist and get a whiff of your sweet natural perfume. which sends heat into his pants. feeling your plush breast push against his chest makes him feel like a shy boy, suddenly reduced to a stuttering and jittery mess.
when taking pictures with you he doesn't even know where to put his hands anymore, and making eye contact with you just worsens everything.
you're just as calm as him,aloft and more composed, yet he's losing his shit over a girl around the same age as him. whether it's you doing simple tasks like reaching over him to get something, the arch of your back just hovering over his lap as he gets a whiff of your scent. and how close the curve of your ass is to his body.
he has to use his hands to gently push down on your plush hips to sit down while he gets what you need before you notice the growing bulge in his heavenly gray sweat pants.
any chance he gets, to lay his head on your stomach, breast, lap he'll take it.
roomie geto who goes on regular bike rides with his friends and alone and always asks you if you'd like to come.
the first time you found out suguru had a bike was when you were sitting outside on a sunny day enjoying the vitamin d from the sun while scrolling on your phone outside of the building complex you and suguru live in. you're listening to music as you play with the ruffles on your tank top before staring at your cargo shorts while ajusting your hair curling inwards to your face.
but your trance was snapped out of when you heard loud revving of a car or bike nearing. at first you were annoyed because it's irritating hearing cars revv their loud engines in a quiet residential neighborhood. but when you see 2 bikers pull up one biker accented with blue and the other completely black you noticed their sature looked familiar.
as the man on the black bike hits the stand up on the bike before turning the ignition off. he hops off the bike seemingly typing something on his phone.
the other one on the blue bike was goofing off laying on his bike like it was a bed, before his head flicks in your direction. he lightly revs his bike which catches your attention as he waves you over lifting his viser up and your met with all too familiar cerulean blue eyes.
you stand up heading closer to the 2, before being engulfed in a hug by satoru. "I didn't know you rode a bike." your voice flowing like the wind soft yet velvety at the same time. "you tryna go f'a ride?" satoru says excitedly as he adjust his seating on the bike, moving back more so you can sit in his lap. you lightly slap his hand at his insinuation before turning to face the all black biker.
his viser now up and you're met with familiar purple eyes, "suguru." you say before giving him a hug for a greeting. his hands automatically wraps around your waist. "I sent you a message, wanna go on a ride?" he says his eyes crinkle hinting a smiles on his face. you don't reject the offer as you wait along side satoru while sugurus fetched for a bike helmet.
satoru kept you close his hand over your shoulder, while he had conversation with you. and when suguru came back he was quick to help you put it on. buckling the strap underneath. and knocking on your helmet to ensure it's sturdiness, and just like that off you go!
roomie suguru who sometimes suffers from nightmares and tends to stay up at ungodly hours, because he can't find himself wanting to go back to sleep.
you've never caught suguru up at an ungodly hour because you were already dead asleep. but due to your now heavy schedule at college, you'd end up waking at 5 am still night preparing for a class.
you'd always see the tiredness in sugurus eyes, bags showing how much sleeps he's missed out on.
as you get ready after taking a shower, you leave your room, heading to the kitchen that was completely dark, but because you're still abit tired you sluggishly move through the dark clumsily before finding a light switch. when you turn it on, you jump back startled by suguru sitting on the couch manspread as his head is thrown back.
he seemed still for a second before his head lifts making eye contact with you. your quick to come by his side wondering why he'd ever be awake at this time. "shouldn't you be asleep?" you ask sitting down next to him.
"m'yea but can't." he says wryly. you stare at him with concern in your eyes. your hand coming to caresse his arm to sooth him."do you want tea maybe? it could maybe help with your sleep." you say not even sure about your own words, but suguru doesn't answer his eyes closed like he's resting them.
you rise from your seat eventually packing your stuff, and once you were ready it was 5:46 am you still have time to eat breakfast so you cut up some fruits to munch on before coming back to meet suguru on the couch with a hot brewed tea in your left hand.
you place the plate down as quietly as possible before gently shaking suguru to open his eyes, giving him the tea which seems to calm his nerves.
"do you wanna talk about it?" you watch suguru as he takes a small sip of the tea before placing it down. suguru's heart melts at your question, you're to sweet for your own good. "just had a nightmare" he says plain and simple.
you grab the plate of fruits eating them one by one as you rest your head against sugurus shoulder and as time flows you feel his head limp right onto yours. when the clock hit 6:30 you carefully slipped out of his grasp before grabbing your bag and headphones. you grab a blanket nearby, throwing it over sugurus body, fluffing a pillow so his head could rest on it before you took your leave.
roomie suguru who enjoys your cooking so much, that he craves it like a pregnant woman craves food
sugurus not sure what you're cooking, but it smells good enough to lure him out of his room. he chats with his friends on facetime as he sits at the dining table with the perfect view of you in his sight. he watches as you move throughout the kitchen, putting and taking stuff off the shelves.
he could tell the dish is definitely not a Japanese dish.
"not gonna lie. Your roommate is a pretty girl, suguru." toji says blatantly on call. "I agree with toji. she's hot as fuck! I never thought I'd be into girls with calm and aloof personalities. and her glasses just makes her the more attractive!" satoru says shamelessly letting out a moan as a joke as he moves around his house ploping on the couch. suguru sends satoru a dirty look causing satoru to cackle like a maniac.
sugurus holds back a scoff before he answer. "you'k she's right here right?" he says showing you in view. you top the pot with a lid to let the food simmer before coming over to suguru to say hi to a couple of his friends.
"hi toji, hi guys" you say, waving to the camera. you seemed almost bashful at their comments, which was pretty rare considering you always have this reserved personality. "y/n, I love you! mwa mwa!" satoru kisses his phone repeatedly as you come in view. causing you to laugh at his antics.
"Hi sukuna," you say, remembering his face from one of your classes, "Hello, woman." "That's not how you talk to a lady!" yuji is heard from chosos phone. "You have the brat with you, choso?" sukuna asks gruffly, staring at choso through the corner of his phone, eventually seeing the salmon haired brat.
you take a sip of cold water as you listen to the conversation everyone has on the phone. but sugurus gaze seemed fixated on you.
"suguruuu! should I host a party? maybe toji and sukuna can finally get some bitches." "suck my dick you albino bitch" sukuna says aggressively. before toji speaks up "aren't you a virgin?" and eventually the call goes crazy with satoru, toji and sukuna arguing with one another you briefly see nanami join the call for 5 seconds before he leaves, shoko coming back into the cameras view. you wave towards her in the mist of the argument.
you eventually leave to go check on the food which was done from how most of the liquid had evaporated from the rice yet still enough to make it soft and moist to eat. you plate the brown rice and chicken on the plate for both you and suguru adding some pickled cucumber on the side with a small salad.
turning off the stove top you check the cookies you were baking that almost looked ready, grabbing a knife to poke into it seeing very little batter on the knife before closing the oven.
you hand suguru his plate before putting yours down, getting cups to poor some juice into, handing sugurus his cup while taking a sip of yours.
you watch as sugurus head subconsciously nods up and down almost like he's aproving how tasty your food is, letting out a hum of delight. suguru ends the rowdy call before powering off his phone to enjoy his meal in peace. to say this was the best meal of his college life, it is the best.
"what is this?" he asked curiously still taking bites of the food. "it's called pelau my mother always made it for me when she felt like cooking for little."
suguru would for sure continue buying ingredients for the house just so he can try the multitude of dishes you have in store.
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Make you mine
Parings: Bucky x Female reader
Warnings: SMUT DO NOT READ IF YOURE UNDER 18+! Slight metal arm kink, Breeding kink, Unprotected sex. DO NOT READ IF YOU’RE UNDERAGE
Summary: You try to cut off things with Bucky but he has other plans.
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The room was thick with tension and your heart was beating in your ears. You knew the arrangement you knew it was just sex so why did it hurt everytime he left? It hurt because you loved him even though you know you shouldn’t.
“I’ll see you after my mission Doll” He says quickly pulling up his pants along with throwing his shirt back on. Your eyes are stuck on him as he gathers his stuff from your room. He walks over and kisses your head before leaving…that’s new you thought to yourself.
“Yea” Was all you managed to say as you watched him leave your room. With a heavy sigh you lay back against your pillows and try not to cry. You felt so stupid, so weak, so pathetic for falling for him. You knew you needed to put a stop to this and you were going to do so when he came back.
Hours went by and you showered before making your way to the kitchen. When you walked in you were greeted with Natasha and Sam sitting at the island sipping their coffee.
“Hey sunshine” Natasha smiled at you while Sam smiled and greeted you as well.
“Morning guys” You said faking a happy tone and smile. Luckily for you they didn’t notice anything off with you and if they didnt say anything. So you just went about making your coffee and went to go sit outside by the lake out back.
The sun felt nice on your skin but not too much to overheat you due to the cool wind blowing by. A smile settles on your face as you watch the ducks by the lake and enjoy the caramel flavored coffee. While you sat there you got lost in your thoughts and started thinking about him. You couldn’t feel anything other than sadness was over your as you thought of him.
After about fifteen minutes of thinking you decided that you really needed to cut whatever this was off when he got back tomorrow from his mission. You couldn’t keep pretending you weren’t in love with him anymore. Once you figured out what you were going to say to him you decided to head back inside.
You walked back inside and went straight to your room without talking to anyone not wanting to be social at the moment. And when you walked into your room your eyes widened at the sight in front of you. There were rose petals on the bed, candles littered your shelves and desk. And the last thing you noticed was Bucky standing at the end of your bed.
“Bucky what is this? I thought you were on a mission?” You asked and he just smiled and walked closer.
“I was” He said taking your hands in his. “And now i’m just finishing it” You shot him a confused look clearly not getting what he was saying. “My mission is to make you mine” His voice was genuine as he spoke.
“B-But you said you didn’t want a relationship” Confusion and anxiety were laced in your voice. Bucky took his fingers and tilted your head back so you looked at him.
“I was wrong… I do want a relationship…One with you” His words got you like a truck and you’re eyes up with tears.
“I-I” The words come or broken and stuttered as you speak. Bucky takes this as his chance to show you how much he loves you. He takes your face in his hands and brings you into a deep and passionate kiss. Instinctively you wrap your arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. He uses this as an opportunity and grabs the back of your thighs and lifts you up. Your legs wrap around his waist as he pins you against the wall.
The kiss is the most passionate kiss the two of you have ever shared. It was messy, heated and filled the air with extreme tension. You started to grind yourself against his crotch once you felt the bulge in his pants.
“Fuck doll you keep doing that i won’t be able to control myself” He grunted in your ear.
“Maybe i want you to lose control” You whisper against his lips and his eyes darken at your words.
“Fuck it” Bucky said and before you knew it you were thrown into your bed. He wasted no time in settling on top of you. His strong hands moved their way to your body before he ripped off your shirt. You gasped when his metal hand gripped your clothed chest. Bucky reached behind your back and unclamped your bra and rolled at your bare chest.
“So fucking pretty” He praised kissing your chest making you blush. Even though he’s probably fucked to over a hundred times by now you never ceased to amaze him. He took his time and worshipped each of your breasts leaving marks in his path before moving down.
“Please” You whined as you felt his hands travel down to the hem of your shorts. His metal hand slipped under both your shorts and underwear making you jump slightly.
“So wet bunny” He chided with a smile when he felt your slick cover his fingers. His flesh hand ripped off your shorts and underwear leaving you completely bare under him.
“Please Jamie please fuck me” You beg gripping onto his broad shoulders. Bucky smiled down and gave you a quick kiss before riding himself off his clothes. You couldn’t help but stare at the man in front of you, he was the most beautiful man you’ve ever laid your eyes on. His toned chest and abs, The most crystal blue eyes, Long dark hair that you adored he was truly a work of art.
His hand roommate your body and gripped your hips as he admired the beautiful woman in front of him. “If we do this…it’s not like the other times understand me? You’re mine babygirl” He said with a softer tone than he’s been using.
“I’m yours Jamie” Those words leaving your mouth unlocked something primal in him and he wasted no time in pushing into you. Your hands flew to his shoulders when you felt his thick cock stretch you out. It had only been a day since you two last fucked but it always feels like wells with how big he is.
“So fucking tight baby” He grunted as he bottomed out hitting your g-spot. Your head flew back from the immense pleasure you felt. Bucky thrusted into you hard and with passion making your orgasm approach faster than anticipated.
“Fuck yes right there baby” You moaned feeling the tip of his cock hit that special spot over and over. Bucky’s grasp on your hips became tighter as his orgasm approached as well. The room was filled with the noises of skin slapping and the wet sounds of your soaked pussy. And the air was thick with the smell of sex and Bucky’s cologne.
“Gonna fill you up bunny. Gonna fucking breed this tight pussy” He groaned as his thrusts began to falter. Your orgasm ripped through your abs your back arched as you came with a scream. Bucky’s orgasm came right after yours and he made good on his word and filled you up.
“Oh fuck Jamie” You moaned when he fucked his seed into you making sure none would leak out.
“Gonna make you a mommy” He said before he pulled out of you with a soft groan. The both of you were panting messes as you laid on your bed. After he caught his breath he pulled you on top on him and gave you a kiss.
“I love you y/n. I’m sorry i pushed you away. I’m sorry i made you feel like i didn’t want to. I love you more than anything and i swear to you is you’re mine i’ll make it up to you everyday of my life” He said genuinely as his thumb rubbed your cheek.
Hearing those words from him made your heart swell and your eyes water. “I love you too Bucky” You said tearfully bringing him into a deep yet soft kiss. Everything you’ve ever wanted is fully coming true and you couldn’t be happier.
That night the two of you proved your love for each other in every way possible. He told you throughout the whole night just how much he loved you. And you told him just how much he meant to you before you two fell into a blissful sleep.
~The end ~
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could I request creepypasta x reader who can take their head off
Various crps x reader who can take their head off
pretending that i didnt tear up the roof of my mouth while eating my dinner shhhshhhh ignoring that my bottom front teeth rest on the roof of my mouth right where its all torn up thus making me hyperaware and by extension making me clench and grind subconsciously characters: jeff the killer, laughing jack, ticci toby, eyeless jack notes: reader is gn, reader isnt really human but theyre written to look human, focusing on first reactions cws: none unless you found taking ones head off as body horror? does it count? im not sure tbh.. mentions of anatomy and stuff in ejs part.. canon typical violence
LAUGHING JACK
finds it so cool, entertaining even... i like to think that he has "clown physics" to him, but im unsure if being able to dethatch limbs would be one... if he cant take his own head off hes going to be a tad bit jealous of you
sometimes yoinks your head and holds it up to his height so you can "see the world from his perspective", this is more likely if youre significantly shorter than him
if you allow it hes going to juggle your head or even "go bowling" with it... you... may get dizzy though, so agree with caution
if your head is loose and has a habit of falling off hes going to take it as a win if it falls as you laugh at one of his jokes
EYELESS JACK
honestly? not all that phased by your little party trick, at least hes not grossed out by the clear view of your necks insides- hes seen those plenty of times... both in the form of images as well as in person when hes needed to silence someone
that said looking at in tact neat remains is different than seeing it all messed up or in a diagram, so if you dont mind he would like to take a look at least once... totally not making notes for future reference
not many questions otherwise, surprisingly... i mean hes a man eating demon of sorts who mostly gets nutrients from eating the organs of humans- he doesnt have much place to ask you what you are exactly or what caused this sort of thing to happen
doesnt ask you to show off your trick, finds no interest in asking you to take your head off and goof off with it unlike some of the others
TICCI TOBY
oh! thats his partner taking off their head.... OH! THATS HIS PARTNER TAKING OFF THEIR HEAD- he... genuinely needs a second to process what hes looking at because it catches him so off guard, you only told him you had a party trick to show him
lots of questions, main one being how and why- were you not a living human this whole time? a little betrayed that you didnt tell him sooner, actually- and even if you did, why didnt you show him this sooner?
traces his fingers along your neck where it separates, after you put your head back on- even more impressed if theres no mark left behind
like jeff, hes going to try to get you to play some jokes on people- though its likely hes going to pull them on masky and/or hoodie
sometimes carries your head around with him while hes working- ignore how morbid of a sight thatd be..! he just wants some company without making it too obvious!
JEFF THE KILLER
stares wide eyed for a few seconds... ignoring that he doesnt have his eye lids anymore so hes always looking at you wide eyed-- thinks he may have actually lost it for a second before cracking up
probably one of the last things hes expected you to do but hey, he thinks its pretty wicked!
oh hes definitely going to try to get you to use your quirk to scare some unsuspecting people who are walking around- perhaps do it late at night for some added effect? and if they lash out he can always swoop in and come to your aid
will push your head off of your neck if youre being a smartass or generally lightly getting onto his nerves- not a hard push, but enough to knock your head loose
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I love your work and saw that your request for baldur's gate 3 was open and was wondering if you can do Astarion x abused? Reader
Basically the reader's father was a narcissist and they or she whichever you prefer. Even though they ran away years ago old habits die hard. They feel the need to take care of everyone else cause that's how they survived for so long and put on a front of being the strong leader they "need". Then maybe they have some sort of nightmare either being dragged back or something feeling the trapped feeling they felt for so long. Maybe Astarion hears them whimpering or something after a hunt and curiosity gets the best of him and ends up comforting them.
notes: didnt want to get too into what abuse the reader had suffered, so I kept it reasonably vague. hurt/comfort
rating: M (due to themes)
pairing: astarion x reader
Astarion hears the sobbing from the moment he steps foot into camp.
He has exceptional hearing anyway and having just fed his senses are sharpened to a knife-point - he zeroes in on the sound with bat-like perception. Ears twitching as he goes, he tip-toe follows the noise to…
…your tent.
That is a surprise. He’s not sure that he’s ever been present to you being anything other than… well, joyful. Constantly smiling. Constantly caring. Constantly laughing and reaching out a hand in friendship, the very epitome of what a good leader ought to be. Even in battle you don’t let awful odds get to you, always crying out reassurance from behind your shield as you fend off bloodied spears and vicious claws.
Maybe it is ego that makes Astarion go to your little refuge. He wants to see you shatter, just a bit. Just so he can reassure himself that you aren’t as infallible as you seem; that you are kith like the rest of them, able to err and break.
Or maybe it’s not because of any of that. It is because, despite it all, he has genuinely come to care for you.
Either way when he pulls open the fabric door his heart twinges uncomfortably in his chest.
You sit up in your bedroll, face buried in your hands, ugly tears boiling out from under your palms and soaking the sleeves of your sleep clothes. Your whole body heaves from both the raw emotion and the effort of trying to keep it under control. He’s never seen you so open.
You look up when you hear the rustle of his arrival. He freezes as the two of you lock eyes.
“Shit,” is all he can muster, and is it relief he feels when despite everything, you laugh?
“Sorry, did I wake you?” you ask, grabbing a handful of blanket and roughly drying your face with it. An attempt to hide the shame of crumbling.
“No, I was still up - out hunting,” he says, and you nod in acceptance. The two of you remain there for a moment, staring. Astarion is stuck on a threshold, both literally between outside and in, but also one of the soul. He wants to reach out. He wants to withdraw. He doesn’t know what he wants.
Eventually, your soft eyes win him over. He walks in and lets the tent fall closed, sitting down across from you on your bedroll. He feels your feet wiggle aside to make space for him and is struck by the intimacy of what he is doing.
This is unlike him. Stupid, stupid. Don’t reveal too much, don’t leave yourself open to vulnerability. He tries to affect a posture of ease, leaning back on his hands.
“Nightmare?” he asks. You nod again, sighing.
“Sorry, I must look dreadfully silly. I was just thinking about… someone I used to know.”
Astarion winces. Yes. He’s been there, hasn’t he - devoured by the panic of your past catching up with you.
“You don’t look silly at all. A bit blotchy, perhaps, but not all of us can look beautiful when we cry.”
He flips his hair and that makes you laugh again. The atmosphere in the tent gets a little lighter. He watches the way your hands desperately look for something to occupy them, how they start picking at the loose stitches in any fabric you can find.
“This man. He used to, erm… hurt me. Quite badly, actually.” He hates the way your usually vibrant eyes have dulled. “And I managed to get away - ran away, really - but sometimes… you know. Something reminds me of him and I get dragged down again.”
Damn it all, Astarion finds himself reaching out and covering your hands with one of his. You stop your slow dismantling of your blanket thread-by-thread.
“I understand,” is what he’s able to force out of his suddenly tight throat. He’s mentioned Cazador before, trying to make a joke out of it, pretending it doesn’t bother him now that it’s all in the past - but it does bother him. Scares the life out of him, really, or this facsimile of a life he’s been able to build for himself now he’s free.
Your fingers slide between his and hold him very tightly.
The two of you sit in silence.
And then he decides to move properly, shuffling ungraciously so that he can be by your side rather than across from you, his arms wrapping around your body and bringing you close.
Your shoulders hitch a little. Fresh tears warm his shirt, patched dozens of times over because of a man who wouldn’t let him buy anything nice and new.
“I’m fucking tired of being strong. It feels like it’s too much sometimes,” you confess, voice barely louder than a whisper. He tucks his head over yours, your scalp beneath his chin, as if he can shield you from the world like this.
“Then don’t be strong. If it feels better, be weak, my dear. I’m the only one here and I promise you that won’t mind.”
You know that, for once, he won’t. Astarion ‘my favourite activity is to judge everyone I meet’ Ancunín is happy to let you lay your soul bare in front of him. So you do, you let yourself force every emotion you’ve ever bottled up leak out of you, in drips at first and then in a full tsunami. You cry so hard that you lose the ability to make sound for a while, silently choking on tears long since overdue.
He holds you all through it. He is not a strong man but his grip is tight, keeping you grounded, and he knows it helps because eventually you go from crying to sobbing to neutral to asleep. You breath evens out into something more controlled and when he moves to look at your face he is relieved your eyes have shut and that you can finally find a little peace. Gods know you deserve it.
You’re the strongest one of them all. He decides that perhaps he wouldn’t mind being there to help you shoulder things, if you need.
He lays down with you, limbs tangled, and drifts off.
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Blushing and Beeps
Here’s another, much, much longer piece about a cardiophile couple below the cut! It might be slightly unrealistic because I don’t know if vital sign monitors actually have audio or not, but oh well!
Summary: a cardiophile woman who’s just had an operation (successful - we love fluff over here) and her cardiophile boyfriend enjoy how the vital signs monitor has an audible ECG. (Mostly fluffy, somewhat smutty? Nothing explicit.)
Ryan can tell when the anaesthesia has worn off because Jessie is no longer slurring her words, but the biggest giveaway is how her wide eyes dart back and forth between the vital sign monitor and her boyfriend’s face.
“You good, baby?” he chuckles, amused at how her eyeballs seem to be playing ping pong - up to the monitor containing her heart rate, blood oxygen saturation and respiratory rate on her left, then up to him sitting in the chair on her right.
“I didn’t- I didnt realise it was audible,” Jessie stammers, referring to the high pitched beep, beep, beep in time with each heartbeat.
“You were pretty out of it, but I didn’t expect it to affect your hearing too. You seemed to reply to me pretty fine.”
His eyes study her face - she’s avoiding his gaze, a telltale sign that she’s feeling shy. He fights the urge to smirk - it would be pure evil in how flustered she’s getting, right?
“Well,” he snorts, “not exactly fine, you were saying some weird things…”
“Shit,” she hisses, dropping her voice to a whisper, “I didn’t mention… you know, did I?”
He laughs, a little too loudly, then covers his mouth, not wanting to wake anyone.
“No, baby,” he smiles, leaning in towards her ear, “you didn’t mention your raging heartbeat kink.”
He pulls back, relishing the sight before him - a bright red paints her cheeks. Their gaze remains locked for half a dozen or so rapid beeps before he averts his eyes over to the monitor.
“85 BPM, huh?”
“Funny how you said it was my you-know-what,” she teases, “I haven’t looked at the number once.”
“Liar,” he scoffs, “now that you’re not preoccupied with your surgery worries, I’m sure you have space in that kinky little brain of yours to indulge while you can.”
Jessie realises he has a pretty good point - she wasn’t able to enjoy the ECG and the pulse oximeter earlier because she was so tense. But now the stakes are practically zero, so indulging in her cardiophilia kink would be a low risk, high reward activity. And a good way to relax.
But is it ethical? And how, exactly? It’s not like she can rub one out or fuck in the middle of a ward.
She glances down at her boyfriend’s crotch and is greeted by what’s at least a semi peeking through his sweatpants.
“Uh,” she giggles, “Ryan-”
“Don’t,” he groans, being the one to blush now, “I know.”
“Sooo, how come?”
“I-” he sighs, leaning in again, not wanting anyone to hear, “I promise you I wasn’t like this before. I couldn’t be, not when I was stressed - I promise that I am turned off as fuck when there’s a genuine medical reason as to why your heart is being monitored.”
“Trust me,” she smiles, feeling strangely relieved and even more fond of him (if that was possible), “I couldn’t be either. It’s funny how context plays a big part.”
“I think it’s because I know you’re okay now. Like you normally are when your heart’s the focus of my attention.”
She bites her lip. “I can’t lie, knowing that you can hear every beat right now is so fucking hot.”
“God,” he groans, and she shivers from his hot breath against her ear, “it is. It’s making me want to make it even faster.”
As if they’re both thinking the same thing - what effect did that have? - they glance at the monitor in unison.
83 BPM.
“I really wanna see a PVC on the ECG in live time,” she whispers, “but I don’t know if that’d set off the alarm.”
“Tr-”
Before he can agree that it might be risky, the curtain is pulled open by a too-cheery nurse.
“Jessie!” he smiles, “good to see you more alert. I’m just going to run some obs if that’s alright.”
Ryan flashes a discrete wink in her direction as the nurse reaches around his neck to retrieve his stethoscope. Stethoscopes have always been his girlfriend’s kryptonite.
“O-Okay.”
“Is that a Littman?” Ryan asks, moving his hands in front of him to cover his semi.
Fuck, Jessie thinks, I am going to kill him. His tone of voice would be perceived as innocent to anyone else, but only Jessie - just as intended - is able to hear the air of ‘I enjoy flustering you, my love’ that his question is laced with.
“Uhhh,” the nurse murmurs, turning over the bell (but thankfully not his face towards Ryan), “yeah, it is! Do you work in healthcare?”
“No,” he says, before a hearty laugh escapes his throat. “No, I, uh- it’s a cliché, right?”
“I mean, they’re the best of the best,” the nurse shrugs, “clear heart sounds are essential for diagnosing things like heart murmurs-”
He clears his throat, interrupting himself. “I’m sorry, I’m rambling. I forget that I can’t nerd out to people like you guys.”
“Yeah,” Jessie says shakily, forcing herself to laugh a little.
If only the poor nurse knew.
“Alright,” he sighs, “it looks like I can’t get this under your annoyingly long gown without the bottom being lifted up. Is that okay?”
Jessie nods, her tongue darting out of her mouth to wet her suddenly dry lips. She hikes up her gown to the middle of her torso, grateful that she’s wearing underwear - the only man who’d ever be allowed to listen to her heartbeat whilst she’s naked was not the one currently holding the stethoscope!
It takes everything in her to not whimper as the diaphragm touches her chest.
She wonders if the nurse can still hear the beeps of the vital signs monitor, then realises that both her and her boyfriend can hear just what he can, minus the lub-dubs of the valves. Knowing that they can both hear how fast her heart is racing makes her clit pulse.
Jessie looks at the nurse and prays he doesn’t see her eyes widening. When she realises he’s looking past her, she lets herself quickly look at the BPM displayed on the monitor.
85 BPM. Real cool, Jess, her inner monologue tuts.
Her eyes dart back over to her smirking boyfriend. As smug as he’s trying to appear right now, his cheeks are also flushed, which amuses her.
“Take a deep breath in for me and hold it, please.”
Jessie’s cheeks burn as she complies.
As she holds her breath, she can feel her heart beating harder against her chest. Against the diaphragm. Her clit throbs again - it’s all becoming too much for her, and she’s sinking into that sweet, fuzzy headspace of submission.
“And exhale for me.”
Her exhale is embarrassingly shaky, and she hopes it isn’t picked up on.
The nurse pulls the diaphragm away, and Jessie is reluctant to let herself relax. Surely he’s going to auscultate her chest throughly, or go to her back next, but he doesn’t.
“Sounds good,” he nods. “I’ll be back in a bit.”
The couple watch him put the stethoscope back around his neck and smile at them before walking out and closing the curtain again.
The second the curtain closes, Ryan stands and stares at Jessie in disbelief.
“I didn’t know “some obs” meant a brief listen to tricuspid before fucking off.”
“Ry!” she gasps. “Don’t be so rude.”
“I’m not!” he says, throwing his hands up in the air, “I’m just saying that I would’ve done a much better job at listening to you and making sure you were okay.”
The look in her boyfriend’s eyes - a stern gaze of lust and possessiveness - combined with his words makes Jessie swallow. She feels so small and protected right now.
“I know,” she whispers, as he walks towards the bed.
Ryan sits down on the bed and leans forward, brushing a few stray hairs behind Jessie’s ear. He leaves a long, gentle kiss on her cheek, then leans back and stares into her eyes.
“Listening to your heartbeat is a fucking privilege, Jess. It’s the thing that keeps you being you - my beautiful girl.”
Jessie can’t fight the smile that tugs at her lips in response to his affection.
“I know it’s silly, but I was worried while you were under. You know, like, what if you didn’t wake up or something.”
She giggles. “You know that’s rare, right?”
“Yeah,” he shrugs, “couldn’t help it though.”
A warm fondness fills Jessie’s chest - her boyfriend wasn’t usually one to be so lovey-dovey and vulnerable, so he must’ve really been worried.
It’s the worry that’s making him so affectionate… right? Surely not being able to hear every beat of his girlfriend’s heart?
Ryan places his hand in the centre of her torso, a hesitant look on his face. “Can I?”
She bites her lip. “You know it’ll probably make me… you know… right?”
“What?” he whispers, “horny?”
Jessie nods.
“Are you comfortable with being horny here? It’s totally okay and understandable if not.”
“Yeah,” she gasps, “I mean, I already, uh…”
She swallows and squeezes her eyes shut, suddenly shy and unable to finish her sentence.
“Awww,” Ryan laughs, “does being stethed really have that much of an effect on you?”
“Mhmmm,” Jessie squeaks, her eyes still closed.
Ryan taps in time with each beep of Jessie’s pounding heart against her sternum. “Can I move my hand up, love?”
Jessie frantically nods her head, and Ryan’s heart skips a beat at the view - his girlfriend looking utterly adorable and flustered, her cheeks bright red.
He drops his voice to a low, quiet rumble. “Use your words, princess.”
“P-Please,” she murmurs, “please feel my heart racing for you.”
Ryan beams at her, and wishes she could see how precious he thinks she is.
“Open your eyes, baby,” he coos as he places his hand over her left boob.
Jessie does, and is flooded with complete overwhelm that sends a warm pool of pleasure straight to her lower stomach.
Her boyfriend’s bright blue eyes filled with love, the rapid beeps of her heart rate filling the space between them, his hand placed firmly over her heart… it’s all so much, making her involuntarily whimper.
And then they both feel it - her heart stumbles against his hand.
If they weren’t so caught up in the moment, they would’ve heard it too - a very messy beep-beep, beep.
Their heads both immediately snap over to the continuous ECG on the monitor, and there it is - a tall peak followed by a pretty little dip in the graph, along with a reading of 90 BPM.
Jessie’s cheeks burn at the sight - she feels like she’s just been caught doing something utterly filthy. Her boyfriend just gave her a PVC, and there’s undeniable proof in front of them both.
And he’s going to milk this to tease her with forever.
“What was that, hmmm?” he teases.
“Oh, God,” Jessie groans, burying her head in her hands. “At least it didn’t cause some kind of sound like I was worried it would.”
“Nuh-uh,” Ryan says firmly, gently pulling her hands away from her face, “you’re going to look at me and tell me what that was.”
“You know what that was!” she whines. “You’re so evil!”
“I want to hear you say it,” he grins.
“PVC,” she huffs in a hurry, unable to make eye contact.
“I guess I’ll accept that,” he chuckles, “what caused it, huh?”
“I-I don’t know! I just feel so…”
“Exposed? Vulnerable? Observed?” Ryan offers, repositioning their hands into Jessie’s lap.
“All of those,” she breathes, “how’d you know?”
He can’t help but smile. “Because if I were you, I’d be feeling the exact same way. I’m fucking dying to get home and listen to her beat for me.”
“You kinda already can, though.”
“I can hear how fast she’s beating, but I can’t hear her.”
“Put your head on my chest?” Jessie asks.
“That’s an offer I’ll never refuse.”
Jessie shuffles to the right side and Ryan walks around the bed to lay on the left.
“I wish the monitor was on the other side,” he groans as he gets comfy, “I’d love to see the electrical activity as I listen.”
“I think we should buy a portable ECG,” Jessie muses. “Hey, watch the electrodes! You’re not supposed to even be in this bed.”
“Sorry, baby,” Ryan laughs, “I don’t know where to put my head. I kinda forgot about these because they were covered.”
Jessie pulls up her gown, making Ryan accidentally moan at the sight.
He clamps a hand over his mouth. “I hope no one heard that,” he grimaces.
“So… you like?” Jessie asks, her voice coming out smaller than she’d have liked - she was going for sexy, and ended up seeming timid instead.
“Fuck, baby,” Ryan breathes, “I love. Can I take a picture?”
“You can take a video if you want. Of all of this.”
Ryan jumps up from the bed and grabs his phone from the chair. He stands at the foot of Jessie’s bed and nods as he hits record.
Ryan walks over to the viral signs monitor.
“86 BPM,” he hums, “babygirl’s been loving this. We witnessed a PVC on this a minute ago too.”
His phone pans over to Jessie who doesn’t know what to do with her face or her hands. She settles for a wave.
“Pull up your gown, princess. Show me how pretty you look with the electrodes on your skin.”
Jessie complies, her clit throbbing at his praise.
“So gorgeous,” Ryan murmurs, “looks like we’ll be buying ourselves a portable ECG.”
He then pans his phone down to the outline of the boner in his sweatpants.
“I’ve been loving all of this too,” he says, dropping his voice to a whisper, “I wish we could listen to her heartbeat as she cums for me.”
Ryan locks his phone, throws it on the chair and climbs back into bed next to a speechless, blushing Jessie.
“Can I kiss you?” he asks.
Jessie gasps and nods, already breathless.
His hands cup her cheeks as he pulls her head towards his.
Jessie wishes she could focus on both the rapid beeping of her heart rate and how soft and warm his lips are, but the latter seems to be winning.
Ryan softly sucks on her lower lip, and Jessie gasps into his mouth.
“You like that, baby?” he murmurs against her lips.
“I’m so wet,” she whispers, “I need you so badly.”
“Not today, princess, I’m sorry,” he whispers back, “you have to be a good patient, don’t you?”
Jessie shivers at “good patient” - somehow it hits just as much as “good girl” does for her. Probably because she’s spent countless hours fantasising about Ryan being a pervy doctor who rewards his good cardiophile patients with lots of praise and attention on their hearts.
“Can we roleplay this? When we buy the portable ECG?” Jessie asks, eyes still closed and lips still touching Ryan’s.
“If you’re a good patient.”
“Fuck,” she breathes, “stop calling me that.”
“Why?” he asks, his voice laced with amusement, “will you have another PVC for me?”
“Maybe,” she giggles, before closing the distance again.
One of Ryan’s hands travels up to Jessie’s neck - a safe place to feel her pulse, since there’s no electrodes there. He pushes his pointer and middle finger against her carotid vein in classic fashion.
Jessie can’t help but whimper at how awfully clinical that, and all of this is.
Ryan pulls away and admires the mess he’s turned Jessie into - her parted lips slightly swollen, heavy breaths escaping them, and her eyes wide and desperate, screaming I need you.
“I’m not risking us getting caught,” he laughs, fondly. He glances over at the vital signs monitor and smiles.
“20 breaths a minute, huh? Do I really make you that breathless, baby?”
“I guess so,” Jessie pants, both loving and loathing his constant (and secretly successful) attempts at flustering her.
“Well, you know what I say - good girls get to breathe, so breathe for me, sweetheart.”
“I already am!” she laughs.
“No, no,” Ryan playfully tuts, sitting on the edge of the bed. “Look into my eyes and breathe when I tell you to, like a good girl.”
“Fine,” Jessie whines, squeezing her thighs together.
“Breathe in and keep looking at me,” he says.
Jessie complies, butterflies swarming in her stomach.
“And out.”
Jessie exhales, but Ryan tuts again.
“That was too quick of an exhale, my love. We want to slow your breathing down, don’t we? Try again.”
Jessie breathes in again and waits for Ryan’s instruction to breathe out, but it seems to be taking a while.
He has a cheeky grin on his face, almost testing his girlfriend’s ability to be obedient. The longer she’s holding her breath, the more prominent each of Jessie’s heartbeats are, which doesn’t help with her horniness.
“And breathe out.”
Jessie tries her best to exhale for as long as possible, but she really wants to complain, so she second she thinks she’d exhaled for long enough, she groans.
“Fucking hell, Ry, I’m not a swimmer! I can’t hold my breath for that long.”
“Don’t worry,” he says, “I was only messing with you, I like you alive and breathing, and you could’ve breathed whenever you wanted. But look, it worked.”
Jessie looks at her respiratory rate, which now reads 12 breaths a minute.
“Much better,” he says softly, “good girl. That heart rate is looking better now too - 68.”
“You know that talking about it makes it higher, right?”
Ryan can’t contain the massive, cheesy smile that stretches across his face at her cuteness. “I love you so fucking much.”
He never thought he’d find someone like him - someone with such a niché turn on. But he did, and she’s his, and she’s okay.
“I love you too,” Jessie purrs, “I wish you could always see just what you do to my heart.”
He raises an eyebrow. “Whose heart?” he jokingly asks.
“Oh, yeah,” Jessie giggles, “my bad. Your heart.”
Suddenly, the curtain opens again.
“What’s all this about hearts?” the nurse from earlier asks.
“Oh, you know,” Ryan says, trying to play it cool, “the usual romantic shit, nothing medical.”
The couple lock eyes, Jessie’s sending a silent plea of my heart rate’s about to go up if he steths me again and Ryan’s saying I hope you’re getting discharged.
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im kinda thinking about bowser being a simp and i cant help but think how would that translate to luigi?
im not gonna take the movie's plot into consideration, but i will be using bowser's characterization as a starting point.
so, we know bowser is a simp for peach, and a big one at that. his style of showing affection is not only loud but downright aggressive, and while it absolutely fits him, it didnt work on peach and definitely wouldnt work on luigi. so where do we go from here?
i'd imagine they start off as begrudging friends. bowser still loves peach, but he doesnt want to shake the peace that has been established. and most of all, the rejection still stings and he's being sorta lost and mopey. luigi, having a heart too kind for his own good, hangs around the koopa king offering his comfort - and while he isnt too keen on having the younger mario brother buzzing around him, its better than being alone.
over time, he gets over the rejection. he is able to form a genuine friendship with peach (with no resurfaced feelings!), and even mario sees him more as a sports rival than a threat nowadays, allowing for some light-hearted banter. when those two toad-heads announce their relationship, bowser is genuinely happy for them. luigi, in the meantime, really grows on bowser as a friend. he invites the plumber over to his castle regularly to spend time together, conversation flowing naturally between them. when he's with luigi, it's so easy to forget about the world.
physical affection, too, starts becoming the norm without either realizing it. it starts off small, simple fist bumps and head pats. laying an arm over the other's shoulder to pull them close while joking, hugs hello and goodbye. eventually, they sit together, sides touching, bowser's tail curling around them.
it's during one of those sit-togethers that bowser first realizes his feelings for the plumber. luigi is fast asleep, cuddled up to bowser's side without noticing, and the koopa king is nothing but enamoured. as he goes to gently pet luigi's hair, he freezes. since when was he so gentle with him? since when were they so close? what he was about to do was something he did for his children often, but they were his family. when did luigi become part of that circle? it left him wondering about what to do.
bowser is loud. he is confident, he is shameless. if he likes someone, they will know. but peach hated his aggressiveness, and luigi would like it even less. so how could he show luigi he loved him without overwhelming him? being subdued and talking around the bush is not his style, but for his new beloved he'd find a way to be true to himself and honest at the same time.
from that night onwards, bowser approaches their interactions differently. he is more openly affectionate, not just in the way of who he allows to see them be affectionate but also what types of affectionate gestures he shows. he cups luigi's cheek, he nuzzles his snout into his head. their hugs become longer and tighter, he freely purrs when luigi runs his fingers through his hair, he gives him flowers. he rushes to pull out the chair when luigi's sits down at the dinner table, and he has his private study adjusted to fit luigi's sensory needs and allow him a space to relax and make his own. bowser is so obvious in his affections that the troops and caste staff start saluting luigi as if he were a person of importance in the castle (much to his confusion).
luigi, as touch starved as he is, takes the new affection in stride. he doesnt realize what it's supposed to mean, but he loves the way bowser is becoming so comfortable with him. he, too, opens up in turn, and it becomes hard to believe that he once lived a life without someone so important to him.
luigi's realization happens a while later than bowser's. the koopa king was asleep on the floor, belly down and head in luigi's lap, with luigi running his hand through the king's hair. it's in that vulnerable position that he comes to terms with his feelings for the koopa king, and he questions himself and their every interaction upon it. the next day, when bowser makes another big gesture of affection towards him, is when he realizes that bowser feels the same way, and has been telling him for a while. when luigi reciprocates, romantically, bowser cannot stop his tail from wagging hard.
and that's where it continues. bowser is still loud and obvious in his affection for luigi, but he makes sure that it is private, for them, and luigi appreciates it immensely. peach, observant as ever, knows immediately when things changed between them, whereas mario stays oblivious until they officially announce their relationship. he is supportive tho (you know, im not even surprised. if anyone can tame that overgrown lizard, of course it'd be weegie).
#bowuigi#luigi#bowser#bowser x luigi#fic idea#the super mario bros movie#they are just so cute together#mario#princess peach#kinda longer than expected im sorry but not actually
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i also wish we could have gotten a glimpse into the head of hawks at the exact moment endeavor says “you should be careful. if youre going to continue investigating the nomus, you’d better get some reinforcement to be able to face against something like this”
in the manga hawks has this little pause from :o to :D
and in both, hawks remarks “「エンデヴァはそんな気遣いせん!」でしたけ?” (“ “Endeavor doesn’t do this much kizukai”…was it?” or translated into “but you’re not that considerate, are you, though?”)
that makes me think hawks did Get that endeavor was expressing genuine concern for him but brushing it off by teasing him in return is the easiest option he has to deflect the attention and close the topic. “ohhh i thought endeavor didnt care about kizukai (roughly, paying attention to others and being considerate)? no?” that’s enough to make endeavor more pissed about his cheekiness than to hear his answer or push the topic
but i wish we’d seen into his head a bit more :> I wish we’d seen whether that casual but genuine concern from endeavor made him feel all the more guilty for having been the one to have pulled endeavor into this trap of a fight. intentionally. even if it happened earlier than he intended.
#endhawks#endeavor#hawks#bnha#tldr : we saw hawks apologize to endeavor 3 times while being anguished at the hurt he indirectly led him to but its not enough for me OwO#mha#todoroki enji#takami keigo
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love song
an: this is a singer!reader ua.💌
summary: you and jack make a song together
you and jack had just got into the studio, you both decided to let it just be you to. you didnt want anyone to bother you while you worked. you just wanted to be alone in your thoughts.
“mams you can take the desk while i take the couch?”
“no come sit next to me.”
“i thought you wanted peace?”
“you dont count, come on babe.”
jack pulled up a chair next to you and kissed your cheek before picking up his pen.
“who’s starting?”
“you babe.”
“alright, what are you thinking the songs going to be about?”
“jack..babe…the song name is literally love song.. you know i worry for you.”
“oh shut the hell up, what flow do you want me to do?”
“calm for now we’ll see later on though, you start off and ill follow your flow. like you start the base and beginning and ill go then you’ll go, get it?”
“yes babe.”
I don't want to give you the wrong impression.
I need love and affection.
And I hope I’m not sounding too desperate.
I need love and affection.
Love, love, love, love and affection.
Love, love, L-O-V-E-E-E and affection.
“i think this is good for the first part ma, you like it?”
“yes this is cute, i’ll start writing mine.”
Oh, baby.
I’m not asking for the world, maybe.
You can give me what I want, baby.
Come hold me tight and when I’m drowning save me.
Give it to me on the daily if I’m your girl.
Say my name, boy.
Let me know I’m in control.
We both grown so how it feel we can let it show.
you started writing a verse that went
I wanna hold you down.
but you decided to change it to.
Wont play around.
I wanna lay you down.
I need you now, I need you now, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.
jack being nosy and not knowing you were finished with your part anyway came over to read it.
he took a second to read it and looked at you as if it was his first time being able to read ever.
“this is so good mama!!”
“thank you baby, for your next part just like repeat this.”
you pointed to his first verse.
“got you ma.”
I don't want to give you the wrong impression.
I need love and affection.
And I hope I’m not sounding too desperate.
I need love and affection.
Love, love, love, love and affection.
Love, love, L-O-V-E-E-E and affection.
you took the notebook not bothering to read his part and went to write your new part.
Boy, lately.
You’ve been stingy with your time.
Got me wondering, i’m wondering if I’m your mind.
Boy I just want to be in your possession.
Say i’m the one you want so come express it.
Don’t slip, don’t slip.
‘Cause a n**** might push up on it.
Don’t really wanna lose this moment.
Why window shop when you own this?
Don’t put it down.
Don’t fuck around.
I want you now, I want you now, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, whoa.
you passed jack back the notebook and told him to do his own thing as long as it fit the vibe of the song.
I don't want to give you the wrong impression.
I need love and affection.
And I hope I’m not sounding too desperate.
I need love and affection.
Love, love, love, love and affection.
Love, love, L-O-V-E-E-E and affection.
Can you love me for poor?
I’m searching for my soul.
(Rockstar)
Whoever turnt you cold.
(Because)
You need to let ‘em know.
I can work miracles.
I’ll work you physical.
And when i hold you close.
You can feel my heart breathing through my clothes.
jack wanted you to read over his part.
you took a minute reading and adding a line yourself.
Oh, whoa-oh.
“jack this is amazing.”
jack reached over and kissed you.
“only because of you my love.”
“finish baby.”
Jackman.
I don't want to give you the wrong impression.
I need love and affection.
And I hope I’m not sounding too desperate.
I need love and affection.
Love, love, love, love and affection.
Love, love, L-O-V-E-E-E and affection.
“never would i have thought i could write a song that i genuinely like this much in less then an hour.”
“when are we recording?”
“we’ll shit lets do it now?”
urban and clay were waiting for you guys to give them the call to come into the studio to actually record.
clay walked in and got ready to record.
you and jack thought it would be best to go into the studio at the same time being as though your parts are so closely tied and related.
it took around four tries before you were both satisfied with the song.
you and jack were going to release it tomorrow, you wanted it to just be a surprise and not lead anyone on.
jack on the other hand wanted to post a snip and release it in two weeks.
“jack i dont want to do that, can we just release the song please?”
“y/n i don’t understand why we cant just wait!”
“how about we wait but no snip?”
“no, lets just do what i want!”
“jack your acting like a child, i make a compromise, take it or where going with my original idea since you cant act like a adult.”
“but-“
“take me home.”
jack drove you both home in silence while you strolled on your phone.
jack pulled in the drive way and you jumped out the car and started to head inside with jack following close behind.
you went into the bathroom to shower and jack jack brush his teeth.
your got out the shower and went to brush your teeth before getting dressed.
you finished and put on your own clothes wanting jack to know you were really ll pissed.
jack walked into the bedroom and immediately jumped on you.
“JACKK!! I CANT BREATHE!!!!”
“im sorry for making you mad mamas, you forgive me?”
“JACKMAN!!”
“say you forgive me and ill get up.”
“I FORGIVE YOU NOW UPPP!!!”
jack got off you and went into the bathroom to shower.
you waited for jack, he took a quick shower and had already brushed his teeth so he but on sweatpants and his wife beater and came cuddle into you.
“goodnight babe.”
“goodnight jackie.”
after around a week after the release the song had hit #1 in charts.
you couldn’t be more proud of jack and he couldn’t be more proud of you.
#jack harlow#jack harlow x reader#jackman thomas harlow#jack harlow fluff#jack harlow x y/n#jack harlow imagine#jack harlow fanfic#jack harlow x you
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Hi!! Just wanted to say your writing is amazing:D
What do you think the Sawyer brothers were like in middle school or high school (if they even went there, lol?) If you don’t like this request feel free to ignore!
i love this question!! ill do it sawyer by sawyer to keep it all organized :) also thank you so much for your kind words! i try my best with these..even if they take 3-5 business days.. this is also rather short..i apologize..
DRAYTON
due to the way drayton spells sex (scex) i imagine he didnt get a great education. i think he was either homeschooled or was pulled out of school early on in his life.
hes the eldest and i think he was heavily affected by his family's money issues after the slaughterhouse was shut down. maybe he was pulled out of school afterward? i just know he probably didnt get past middle school.
even if he did, i dont think he would survive in highschool. let alone stay in it for long. since his family needed help with their whole cannibalism act plus grandpa and grandma needed someone to care for them, he wouldve dropped out and stayed to help out.
once they got older and the twins were born, drayton tried his best to help his family make a little bit more money for his brothers to go to school. he genuinely cares about them, he just doesnt admit it nor does he know how to show it
most of the english he's learned is from his grandmother teaching him and his work in the gas station! she also used the gas station to teach him math :)
CHOPTOP
hes either a choir kid or a theater kid. probably a theater kid. as a theater kid i can confirm i in fact act like choptop
during highschool he was in his emo/goth/all american massacre phase. when he was a freshman he would help out just a little with his family's money issues - giving kids weed in trade for money.
him and nubbins were troublemakers - always having to be seperated. the only problem is how bad their separation anxiety gets. the twins never stay apart for long. both of them will kick and scream if theyre seperated and highschool wasnt any different.
out of all the brothers, i think choptop is the smartest. his experience in the military really helped him with his education and he was able to learn so much. i think he had a pin pal at some point and that definitely helped him with his writing!!
he wasnt able to fully complete highschool because of the draft but he was at least about to get to 11th grade :)
NUBBINS
nubbins was definitely a struggler in school. he didnt really understand what was being taught no matter how he was taught. teachers have tried to tutor him and he just never understood it
choptop helped him a lot with getting him to understand. he would sit with nubbins at the dining room table and help him through their math homework, help him with english essays, anything he needs. he would explain it in a way nubbins could understand easier!
he was very dependent on choptop throughout highschool. they were always seen together
i dont know how to explain it but nubbins really likes comic books. theyre a lot easier for him to read, especially with the pictures
grandpa also read him a lot of books when he was younger! according to nubbins, he's grandpa's favorite
BUBBA
there really isnt much to say about bubba? his parents didnt really see a use of sending him to school
he was mostly homeschooled by the twins..who would always try to get him to say words
at the very least he knows how to write his name and he can understand what his siblings ask of him. he tries! really he goes off of tone of voice for how he reacts
#HEY HEY HEY HEY! HEY STOOPID! ➸ annon writes#I WASNT EVEN A BILL I WAS JUST AN IDEA ➸ annons hcs#you fudgepackers'll be the death of me yet! ➸ TCM writes#tcm#texas chainsaw massacre#chop top sawyer#nubbins sawyer#drayton sawyer#bubba sawyer#leatherface
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So Heres A Thing That Happened (yes sorry ive been MIA)
(been saving since clorinde btw 😌😌)
Yeaaaaah i was originally gonna be getting chiori to just c2 -> c4 and then get c0 xilonen but i honestly was like. thinking about her kit and teams and whether i actually had any imminent need for a flexible support as is since this account is overall so stacked and with so many options to choose from anyway (whereas xilonen absolutely shows her value in any less invested accounts much stronger) and then the way i was feeling kinda eh with the execution of her animations even if i liked her design and it just wasnt the vibe whereas. Chior. we all know. i love her sm i dont even have words for it shes just everything. and with how wacky and nonsensical the rerun situations been w genshin i didnt feel that confident on just assuming shed get another rerun within a reasonable timeframe without a risk of just going MIA shenhe or wrio style . and im really not that interested in most of the known natlan cast unfortunately so its not missing out on that being an issue rly. ill get mavuika for meta if shes an off fielder but im not that invested in the rest rip
....sooooooo i just full sent it 400+ pulls 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 and oh my GODDDD im so happy i did like 😭😭😭 the way chioris cons are All so genuinely significant across the board and then c6 just cherry on top bc she Both becomes the carry AND an exploration legend (bc skill cooldown goes from 16s to 4s) so i can keep using her Everywhere is just. waow. its actually So wild experiencing ur first limited c6 😭😭 she is Everything
anyway side effect of this unfortunately includes that now im mad i wont have the pulls (bc this took EVERYTHING i had) to get xilonen because unironically c6 chiori is now the unit id most like to be playing WITH xilonen so i Actually wish i had her now 💀💀💀💀 for like furina yelan wet rock team . but oh well. im sure shell be able to carry absolutely all content imaginable even if i can only secure xilonen on a later rerun HSH86SIHTSIHUGI what an adventure
#and YES this is the kind of energy ajax couldve been having all this time if his cons werent like. literal ass 💀💀💀#like . fycking hell why are they so BAD its not even like. haitham or yoimiya bad wjere they do Something#but its just not that impactful#but theyre just. ass outright like 😭😭😭#anyway. fun fact chioris def scaling on the NA. Isn't limited to her geo infusion actually#so you can do like . 15k physical normals easily. or hydro with candace. pyro w c6 bennett. its so funny#im SO mad chiori cant be used as a support character in this theatre like IMAGINE the clout i could get from c6 best girl 😭😭#anyway also got my first diluc after nearly 4 years in these pulls so. that was something#genshin#gaming tag#rambles
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sometimes i think about the gadreel telling dean to kick cas out plotline and am filled with more rage than you can imagine. its NOT even that like. dean was mean to cas or anything im sure he gave cas money or something bc i cant see a world where he kicked cas out with nothing and he was pretty forthright about caring about cas during that sequence where cas wasn't allowed in the bunker.
but its SOOOO obvious the only reason cas didn't get to stay in the bunker was because of the hand of the author. they didnt wanna change the status quo of the show. im not even talking about destiel im talking about the fact that castiel being human, and potentially learning to enjoy being human with his best friends, would destroy the rest of the season's planned plotline for him. he would've just gone completely human and not wanted to be an angel anymore. this would've also meant he could've went on more hunts much earlier than he did in the actual show, and his dynamic with both brothers could've developed during the downtime between him being safe in the bunker and the rest of the season's plotline moving (bc lbr the season plotline doesn't pick up again until holy terror, and this isn't a bad thing its just very obvious)
(although i still stand by that if you wanted to actually successfully pull off the rest of the season you could just have him be kidnapped later, hear that ezekiel is dead, and then have him make the call to become an angel again in order to be able to escape and help dean. like the phonecall where dean is like "and you're okay with that?" re: cas being an angel again would've hit a lot harder bc dean would've been able to pick up on his enjoyment of some aspects of being human)
also the doylist reasoning behind not letting him spend time with cas is also to isolate dean so he starts working with crowley when the gadreel reveal happens.
also lets be fucking real the sexual tension between human cas and dean would've been off the charts they were like we cant fucking write that the fucking (heller comrade) traitors on our writing team WILL make it gay we CANT do that.
sorry for this essay im just. its one of the biggest wastes of potential in the show.
So true bestie. The hiatus between season 8-9 was my first in the fandom and we were all CERTAIN that Destiel was going to happen from how gay the last couple of episode were (THE CRYPT SCENE. THE ARROW IN THE BAR.) And then. Then. I mean like people were convinced every season hiatus but there was something in the air for that one. And that thing was destiel. So they stopped letting them hang out.
On the bright side, I enjoy how horrible the experience is for Dean having to lie to both Sam and Cas because I'm a sicko. And it's very funny. He was SO close to having everything he wants (Sam alive and well. Hell closed. Cas with them permanently.) And he can't have that because of one, shall we say, social faux pas. And every day someone is asking him with genuine kindness and love "but Dean, isn't happiness directly in your grasp? Don't you want to grasp it?" And he has to go. Through gritted teeth. "No. I like it like this. This is happiness for me. It's my choice."
It's cringe comedy, it's a comedy of errors, it's lies on lies on lies. It's funny! Especially since Sam just sort of decides to find Cas incredibly charming this season out of nowhere. Just to twist the knife that Dean has to make the problem. So, it might help to reframe it that way haha.
And also, 9.06 is GREAT FUN for me in particular. Ohhh we want to be together so bad but even if we say it nothing will change so we won't and we're both bitter about it but damn do I love you. Catnip for me. It has its problems but the NIP.
I do think that a more charitable part of the Doyalist explanation is a problem they run into very noticeably in s10, 11 and 12: they only have enough money designated for a certain number of guest star appearances. That's why he's "watching The Wire" so often lol. This is an assumption of mine but like. That's gotta be the reason. So they wanted something for Cas to be out there Doing when he's offscreen for long periods (and they were just like 'fuck it' in later seasons)
This is a tangent but I think it's so interesting how obvious in Supernatural it is that practical constraints affect the material plot. All monsters are guys in suits. Season 3 is cut short from the writers strike so Dean goes to Hell. Cas and Mary can't be in as many episodes that they obviously should be in so their character flaws are that they're flakey and often disappear. They couldn't get JDM for a season 3 episode of Dean's nightmare so they had Dean's biggest fear in fact be succumbing to his own self-hatered.
Anyway. In conclusion, season 9 sucks. I agree.
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dazais plan
quick little ramble one
well this wont be quick
anyways
im fucking torn apart after the newest episode, because ive not been able to watch it until now because ive been busy.
anyways.
i am in shambles.
i know it sounds like wishful thinking, but i genuinely do think dazai has a plan. of course he does; asagiri isnt going to kill him off just like that without any good reason. unless there is a completely valid, reasonable, sound explanation, then no, i really dont think asagiri will kill dazai. there are too many unanswered questions, too many shut down paths should that happen. it'll pretty much tip the balance of the narrative slightly, shift the story. idk. anyways.
my point is, dazai cant die here. not like this. just like chuuya said when they fought lovecraft. this is not the place to die. they still have so much left to do together. he cant possibly leave him here now. not without a plan.
i just like to keep referring back to the lovecraft fight; "when have my tactics ever been wrong?"
this gives us a pretty clear indication that dazai's plans almost always follow through. we've seen instances where, no, they haven't. oda. 55 minutes. some parts of fifteen.
but these are all extreme cases. he could do nothing about oda, because he didnt know of moris involvement/plan. he could do nothing about oda, because oda had already made his mind up. he could do nothing about oda, because it was too late.
he could do nothing about gab, because gab had been changing the outcome of the entire thing using time travel; dazais no exception to that. if gab knows that dazai knows what he will do, he goes back in time and now knows that dazai knows what he will do, and can therefore get the jump on dazai, who is still in the stage of not knowing what gab knows. confusing lmao.
ANYWAYS SORRY.
my point is, only in the extreme cases where everything is doomed to fail from the start do dazai's plans fall through.
this is an extreme case where dazai's plan NEEDS to come through. it cannot crumble. the literal fate of the world depends on the agencys next moves, and they have to be careful and cautious of/about them. because, should they make one wrong move, everything's fucked.
and, that's the beauty of soukoku. the raw trust.
honestly, trust doesn't even put it into words.
it doesn't do their bond any justice. because it's so much more than that. they rely on each other, they exist within one another. they literally are one soul in two bodies. they exist WITH each other. there's no chuuya without dazai, and there's no dazai without chuuya. so, asagiri will not put chuuya into a world or a plan without dazai there, because they need each other. they need each other to be alive and well and fine. they need each other to pull through this, each playing their roles.
i dont know what kind of wack ass plan dazai has in mind. but i hope to god it comes through soon.
i think the anime really did ch 101 such a good fucking justice; something about that scene was so raw, so emotional, so beautiful. the colours, the expressions, the movements. i've always said this, but soukoku is like a private thing. whenever they're involved, it always seems like you're intruding on their moment. this is theirs. this isn't for the eyes of anybody else. the lack of music and the softness about the dead apple scene, the unity and trust and reliance in the lovecraft fight, the playful back and forth bickering when they rescue q, or at any other moment.
each and every moment between these two is something so special, so foreign and so delicate. like a glass flower. it's so beautiful, and it pulls you in. but you know better than to touch it so carelessly; you must handle it with care and attention. everything about this is important. each small glare, each tiny dent. each little glint in the light, each sharp edge, each smooth side. all of it is worth looking at, and all of it means something. even the most insignificant parts of it have a role to play in making it look so beautiful.
and that's what i think is so fascinating about soukoku. every small interaction, every dynamic, every word spoken between them; it all means something. even their stupid bickering. even their harsh glares. it's all important.
i may be rambling, but god idk. something about soukoku just makes me feral i guess.
the soft moments between soukoku are definitely my favourites.
dazai catching chuuya's falling body out of the sky, and laughing quietly about how he wants to doodle on his face. there's something so childlike and innocent, so pure about that. they get to be the kids they never got the be around each other. they get to relax, unwind. they get to live easy, and breathe easier when they're around each other.
the one panel of dazai gently holding chuuyas head as he rests in his lap. dazai gently cupping chuuyas cheek, nullifying corruption and taking away the absurd amounts of pain that chuuyas in. just in their own little bubble. quiet whispers. something about the way dazai makes no comment when chuuya collapses onto his lap once more, eager to let him rest. something about the way he smiles at him when he's not looking. something about the way he talks to others about him. something about the little comments he makes, without even mentioning chuuya's name, and everyone knows its about him (everyone being us ofc). something about the privacy of their partner/relationship, nobody else knowing the details. nobody else knowing how deep that trust runs between them. nobody.
it's just theirs. their little thing to have with each other. it's only theirs, and nobody can take it away from them.
not even asagiri.
because how can you rip someone's soul apart?
how do you kill half of a single soul?
anyways. im very tired. its half 4 in the morning right now, and im just so out of my mind and sad but happy about soukoku, and how much i fucking love them and their dynamic and could talk about them for hours. genuinely, it feels like i blacked out writing this, i just get out of hand and start going on and on and on and getting more fucking metaphorical as i go.
anyways, hope you enjoyed LMAO have a lovely day/night, wherever you are <3
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#skk#soukoku#analysis#ramble#rant#idk#lmao#bsd analysis#bsd ramble#bsd rant#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#double black#osamu dazai#chuuya nakahara#gay#theyre so gay#homos#big raging homos#dazai isnt dead#im telling you#he has a plan#i love flower imagery with soukoku#gets me feral#literally the best way i can describe them is they are a glass flower#idk how well i explained that here but i hope i did my mind justice
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Can you write some stuff about Spot with one bed trope. You can either write pre collider or after collider. Which one is easy. I just have this idea for days and you I love your writings
one bed trope with Jonathan Ohnn!
basically jonathan has a crush on reader, no confession happens, and reader isnt confirmed or denied to reciprocate mostly just jon watching you sleep and thinking about what could be admin got a little silly not proof read, the bangers im listening too were too intense, we die like the spider that bit miles not sure how long this post is going to be! im not used to typing on an actual computer so my shoulders going stiff </3 anyways!
honestly i wouldnt put it past him to not get a room with one bed on purpose/hj
but lets assume he didnt and this is a genuine coincidence, because i think his misery and half hidden crush would be funny
gonna do a middle road here and assume spot has a crush on reader but hasnt confessed yet; whether reader feels the same is going to be up in the air
you see his body language immediately change when he sees the single bed in the room; you two had booked a hotel for the night for one reason for another
perhaps a work trip?
regardless the point still stands that there is only one bed
he offers to sleep on the floor, he doesnt mind it for one night, he can suck it up and-
you stop him before he can go on a full thing about how you can have the entire bed to yourself and how his back can stand sleeping on the floor for a few hours
yeah, no, with how hes always hunched over himself, his back will most certainly not thank him in the morning...
thank god the room is dim, otherwise youd see just how red his face is... not that his nervousness wasnt evident with how he was stumbling over himself
you convince him to take the left half of the bed, while you take the right
oh boy this is awkward
the air feels so thick, like you could cut straight through it... or is that just jonathons thinking?
his back is to you, so his face isnt right in yours; whether that makes it more awkward he cant tell...
he considered breaking the silence, but stopped himself; what if you were already alseep
you werent talking..
he carefully rolled onto his back and looked at you, hoping he wasnt too obvious
you were asleep already.... oh how he envied you, for dropping so fast
he turned, now facing you, alone with his thoughts
his mouth parted, before closing again
what? was he really going to talk to you, while you were knocked out?
"get real..." he thought to himself
he wasnt sure how long he ended up laying there, but for the majority of the time he was awake he thought about you
every part that he liked, everything that he wanted to tell you, the future he wanted to have with you
he wanted to hold you, to take you out and spoil you. maybe even move in together in a nice house? maybe even, if you wanted, have kids? he never really saw himself as a father but if you wanted him to be, he'd step up-
and and
he would make sure that you knew you were valued to at least one person, everyday, and would remind you how much he loved you, and...
but-
but you were coworkers; and thats how it would likely remain..
"but," hed interject, only to shoot himself down
it was agonizing, actually
that repeating cycle of thoughts kept up until his eyelids were about to close
but as he was about to drift off, your form suddenly scooted closer to him
eyes wide he looked at you, oh god were you awake the entire time he was staring?
no
you were still asleep
on one hand he was relieved that he wasnt caught being... weird... and his body relaxed' but on the other hand he felt his heart wretch knowing that you werent really. snuggling into him on purpose
as much as he wanted to stay close by and nuzzled into you, he shifted himself to the edge of the bed and sat up
he looked at the clock, it was a few hours past midnight...
he pulled himself up, and tugged himself to the bathroom
yeah... there was no way he was going to be able to sleep with you in the bed... not that it was your fault..! its just..
he frowned, desperately avoiding accidentally glancing at himself in the mirror
no, you would never... right?
when morning comes and you eventually wake up and question his absence in bed and the circles around his eyes he dismisses you with a simple "oh i couldnt sleep, the bed was uncomfortable,"
poor guy
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I LOVE SAMELLA...... read twinning with a twist and havent been the same since but they really do just work really well together if you think ab it. with both coming from bad family situations (only implied for ella tho i think) and needing everyone to like them all the time. sammy is really hurt that she's always painted in a bad light no matter how hard she tries to fix it, while ella doesnt realize how she comes across as annoying and that people dont really like her until sugar flat out tells her, and she starts spending so much time trying to get sugar to like her. its just interesting bc sammy feels defeated and ella is just determined to both be herself and be someone who everybody likes.(though, and this might just be pulling from twinning with a twist a lot, it does feel like she uses her princess fantasy as escapism. possibly partly bc shes Not oblivious i bet she realizes people dont like her that much, she just doesnt know what to do about it. if they dont like her when shes trying to be the perfect princess and polite and kind what is so bad about her that even if shes nice they dont want her?) sammy IS nice, and she doesnt hide it, but somehow ends up taking the fall for amy's behavior (even tho amy was outright awful to everyone?? this plot confused me so bad. but i guess scarlett and amy dont care, topher probably just doesnt care or Loves to stir the pot, max and rodney are probably too dense, and we know how jasmine reacted) and she has such a complex about it its Bad. i honestly love sammy i wish they treated her better. i think ella shouldve also had a last straw snap like sammy did, just absolutely go off on someone about why they dont like her. isnt she trying hard enough? whats wrong with her? and sammy might see that as inspiration and really admire ella for it, and spend more time together (without amy this is important.) then later maybe sammy asks ella for tips and she tells her that she seems like a really nice person !! and maybe likens sammy to a princess as well, because ella didnt have amy on her team influencing her perception of sammy. so that like shocks sammy and she realizes that if ella can do it she can, and if ella sees her as someone worthy just knowing Sammy, then maybe she is, and has worth on her own outside of amy. i love jasmine but i dont love the way she just lets it happen either. i think sammy believed jasmine when she said she was good, but couldnt help but feel like its only because she feels sorry for her, and not really based on her own merit because amy has never let sammy have anything for herself, not even her friendship with jasmine. so being on different teams from ella and still bonding could give them a chance to establish that connection without amy at all, which might make sammy feel more secure that ella truly means what shes saying. i think one of the conversations would happen after ella is voted off, and sammy would get mad, saying that ella was genuinely sweet and they couldnt see past the fact that she was also 'too weird', and then say her situation was similar in that they judge her on the surface of what amy tells them without ever trying to get to know her at all, and she tells amy shes done trying to compete with her. her worth shouldnt depend on whether amy or their mother thinks shes good. maybe this could also relate to ella's brief crush on dave, and how she feels betrayed by sky for being so excited when she was clearly upset about it when she thought they were friends, and she also realizes dave didnt fit the mold she wanted him to. i think sammy would comfort her after, and this shouldve been the start of ella accepting she cant spend her whole life in a fantasy or she wont make real connections. and later when they get together sammy might confess she worries about not being enough for ella, not being able to fit the princess life. but ella tells her that their relationship isnt a fantasy, its real. she wants to take it slow, and not put any expectations onto her. like, character growth. IDK sorry for the rant i just like them
this might just be my favorite thing
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